There was a time that I was pretty good on clarinet and piano. Then I realized that I haven’t learned any new skills in years, that I can’t pick up any instrument and improvise with anyone, that I got comfortable with what I was and forgot to really maintain that or improve it.
I have been in the arms of a thousand men around the world dancing. But as I hold my husband or son in my arms, I realize I can’t teach them the leader part and I think I’ve forgotten more swing out variations than I’ll ever learn in the future!
I was the person in the gym who would help the new folks and make up workouts for others and now I find myself not knowing how to train at all for this 30 mile obstacle course race I want to do next year or being the slowest or weakest at certain exercises during crossfit class. This is especially humiliating when I used to be great at something – like pullups – and found myself having to use bands for months until I got them back.
Every weekend I used to find myself at the library getting out new books and found it had been years since I really finished one. I think I forgot to learn as I was so busy moving and changing / learning my way around new jobs. The ipad didn’t help either as I became lazy just picking a movie. A few months ago I decided to start reading again and starting AND finishing a book. I probably had about 30 books partially starting lying around. They are all in a section in my library now for me to work through one at a time and a small pile of finished books are piling up! I feel good about that.
“It is never too late to be who you might have been.” Words I got from a very wise man, Glen Sinclair, my yoga teacher at Sadhana Studio in Boston.