The Walking Dead and Getting Shoulder Surgery While I Still Have Insurance 6-30-20

NEC Energy Solutions Corporate HQ in Japan announced 2 weeks ago that they are “winding down” our smallish startup.  I am not sure if I will have a job for a week or 2 years at this point.  Strangest year ever continues.

So June 26 I got my right shoulder rotator cuff and bicep reattached.  My goal of doing a 50 miler remains for this year.  I will do Kilkenney Ridge one way as  a practice run.

#Seenlocal #Seensolo at Beaver Brook 6-14-20….Growing Forward

“In his book On Trails: An Exploration, Robert Moor writes, ‘In the end, we are all existential pathfinders: We select among the paths life affords, and then, when those paths no longer work for us, we edit them and innovate as necessary. The tricky part is that while we are editing our trails, our trails are also editing us.’ The choices we make, make us. We get to edit our paths, innovate them. We get to choose the story we tell about our lives—and the paths we choose, the story we tell, changes us too.”

Here I am again, at another crossroads in life.  My company announced its’ “wind down” last week and I am not sure if I will have this job for a week or a year still.  I am back in a “comfortable” place I have been frequently the last 11 years after I left the “safety” of GE and excited about what is to come.  It is the first time in a while I’ve had a “normal” transition out of a job, vs. ending a consulting engagement where you really aren’t part of the company and its nice to be with friends going through the same transition.  NEC has been the best team I ever worked with.

When I started trail running last year, I saw the movie “A Star is Born”, which broke my heart thinking about my friend Gunter, and listened over and over to the song “shallow” which talks about diving into the deep end and never meeting the ground.  I felt like that all last year – being afraid…committing to something I didn’t fully appreciate or know how to do.  I had set a goal, the Killington Ultra, having never done anything like it and just determined to trust my coach and try.  Finish or leave my body on the mountain – and this doesn’t mean failure, it meant doing my very best and not giving up ever.  Through all of last year, I found new friends, a love of trail running and the fun of problem solving myself.

I found the introductory paragraph and the following in a running blog:

The author talks about finding someone with the “…spirit of approfondement—if I may borrow that marvelous French word that translates roughly as ‘playing easily in the deep.'”

You follow your heart, be happy about what you have, who you have in your life, and grow forward.  Learn to be good being in uncomfortable situation – it is something I hire for now.

Today was a beautiful, cool sunny day and I did my Sunday run on some new trails at Beaver Brook.  It was spectacularly beautiful.  As I think about updating my resume, I realize I need to rethink this as I am not the same person I was four years ago – better I think, I hope and definitely changed. And not afraid at all to go deep.

Tied Bike Hill Record 6-6-20 and New Gear

Just when I was certain I am weaker than last year inexplicably, I tied my cycling hill record by Silver Lake 1:40 on Saturday, near the beginning of an 85″ bike ride.  YES!  I also got a new yellow watch band AND best of all, a new way to attach my phone to the bike for long runs when I need extra battery life with navigation.

Introducing the new quadlock system with extra components to sandwich in my big battery.  My phone, even in airplane mode, with GPS lasts less than 90 min.  This may not be the most aerodynamic solution but it is great for me and I am very excited to have battery life while riding.

I also realized that mapmyride has no vocal navigation so think I need to download map to google map to get turns called out.  Strange that no cycling app has figured this out yet.


Running on a Bottle 5-17-20

The world seems to be falling apart.  Corona virus still rampaging.  Crazies protesting wearing a mask.  Still working from home.  The idiot President and lack of sensible plans across the US.  Even though I sit here in my peaceful Hollis home, I almost can’t stand watching any news.  So this Sunday I had a glass of peach wine from the winery by my sisters’ house after a long day gardening.  Then another.  Then a few hours later two more until the bottle was gone. I was then thinking I should do my long run Monday instead but….  postponing is for the weak right?!  I set out around 7:30pm for my 80″ run around the hood at 180 cadence.  Miles 2-3 were a little tough…hard to keep steady but I did it.

Lessons learned:  Drinking OK prior to running.

No Tears Shed This Year! First Nashoba Run 6-2-20

Back at it.  I’ve been missing it.  Wanting to beat last years’ record.  Knowing it would not be easy to get back at.  Fearing it.  Remembering that every step that hurts there means I won’t hurt in a big race later (that thought is the most useful!)….

Nashoba hill runs Tues 6-2-20.  Forgot my watch so have no stats.  6x, one with 20 lb vest and one with 40lb sandbag.  It felt like a slow slog.  I remembered to pace at beginning – you shouldn’t be tired/worn out after the first third…. I always ran up over the top.  Started using technique I found at Killington where I got up facing left 10 steps, then right 10 steps – just keep going.  Determined progress forward.

I wasn’t alone but as usual, was the last on the mountain 🙂

No new records today but I did it.  I showed up and that counts too.

Recovery, Menopause Amidst Corona

This is day 86 since I was last in work.  We went on vacation in the Philippines and then I was quarantined when I returned and then right as I was about to go back, the entire company was sent home.  Every Friday night we ask each other what we want to do and answer “Stay In!”  I am having issues wearing bras now (so uncomfortable) and accidentally putting my clothes on inside out:

We roll out of bed already in our work clothes and go to it!  All the deliverers (fedex, usps, ups, etc) are crazy busy with home deliveries so things take longer, also as the companies may not be up and running you order from online.

I follow Andrew Cuomo, Governor of NY, as he has united a block of states on the east coast (unfortunately not NH as our republican senator chooses to go alone) to have an orderly, and scientific reopening plan.  He does daily updates with facts and real data vs. the joke of a President, who uses his daily updates for propaganda, lies and to promote himself and the “good job” the Federal Government has done (not).  Tests are not available, there is no formal guidance to the states, the states haven’t been funded, moneys have gone to big businesses, unemployment process is overwhelmed with over 20% of the population applying, and no support with coordination of supply chain for critical PPE or tests.

I used to go to the grocery, Market Basket, early on the weekend and would be practically alone in there.  Now I get up at 6:30 and get there around 6:50 to already find this line, socially distanced at 6′ between each, waiting to get in after the 6-7am early opening for elderly (of which I am almost one!).  I find:

  • Only a certain number allowed in store so someone counts people going in and coming out – only one entrance allowed for this to be possible.
  • Meat limited to 2 of each type/customer as meat plants are shutting down all over the country due to COVID – close proximity of the workers has spread it fast.  Trump ordered them all open this week without requiring employers to follow safer working practices as dictated by the CDC – do your job and possibly die or don’t do it and get fired.
  • Market Basket has their deli/fish counters open.  Hannaford does not.
  • Plenty of empty space on shelves as everyone appears to be buying toilet paper, sanitary wipes, any fast food meals like Ramen noodles, yeast not to be found anywhere (I ordered a 2lb bag online), pasta, soups.  Plenty of healthy food though like vegetables and grains!
  • Everyone at MB wearing masks but Hannafords was a free for all with noone monitoring number of people in the store and many without masks.  Hannafords did have food that MB did not like popcorn, peanuts, more meat.
  • Reusable bags not allowed.  I bring a wipe to clean the cart handle before and after I use it.

After my shoulder surgery was delayed, I decided to go all in and work out like crazy, which then almost broke me.  I was so rickety I could barely walk in the evenings.  Not sure why – in March, when I was in NC I had a glass of wine, which I swear threw me into hot flash hell.  One an hour, which makes my sleep crap.  That, combined with perhaps unacknowledged stress of the 24/7 bad news, has taken its toll.  We geared back the workouts (also because all races seem to be cancelled this year) into maintenance and I am trying to improve sleep (Tylenol PMs working well last two days) and do some meditation during the day.

Love the drama of running the trails – did a 65″ workout in the Hollis trails last weekend starting from the North Cemetary and running to trails across from Silver Lake for a short loop and going back:

I have my buff to cover my face when passing others….

Since working out less with weights and just trying to feel good every day, I have had a few good runs where I don’t feel tired all the time.  Hard to untangle if it is age, overtraining, general stress or this menopause!



Favorite Full Sun Roofdeck Plants

These plants are tried and true for full sun roofdeck.  They do require water!  Based on 10 years gardening on my South End, Boston roofdeck.

Perennials (come back every year)

  • Blueberries – great berries and fall color, underplant with alyssum and lantana
  • Shrub roses – white seafoam and pink fairy.
  • Scabiosa – purple round, spiky flowers
  • Coreopsis – many varieties – prolific bloomer all summer
  • Heliopsis Lorraine Sunshine – underplant with annuals blue Felicitas and lobelia
  • Coneflower/Echinacea – white, pink
  • Rudbeckia – many varieties
  • Indian Blanket Flower “Gaillardia artista” summers kiss – with lavender
  • Daisies- many perennial varieties
  • Walker’s Low – Nepata Faassenii…beautiful grey/green leaves with continuous flowering blue spikes. Cut back if flowering stops
  • Susanna Mitchell – Anthemis Hybrid…delicate foliage with daisy flowers that close at night
  • Lavender Provence, Hidcote (sometimes these just die over winter – not super hardy)
  • All sedums – many, many varieties
  • Daylillies Stella d’Oro daylilies (yellow), planted with lavender, lamium, and purple/white violas
  • Nicotiana – several varieties/varying heights – white flowers

Annual Vines

  • Mandevillas – these come in climbing vines (pink, white or red) or red bush varieties. Super bloomer
  • “Candy corn” vine available from Hillbilly Acres nurseries…underplant with yellow lantana and alyssum
  • Thunbergia (yellow flower) …underplant with alyssum, brachyscon, zinnias
  • Morning Glories – I plant them everywhere – bloom in morning late summer and fall. Best bloomer by far is variety “Heavenly Blue”.  Can be invasive at ground level.
  • Passion Flowers – totally beautiful flower, climbing vines in a variety of colors

Annuals  (Must buy every year)

  • Arctotis Graadis – beautiful white flowers with silver leaves
  • Verbena
  • Hibiscus – these can be trimmed to be like trees or are in bush form. Continuous bloomer.  Tropical – bring indoors in winter…condition slowly to put outside again
  • Zinnias – Always a winner all summer
  • Double impatients – I am not a big fan of normal impatients but the double ones are fantastic, vibrant colors – a standard for me. Do better with partial shade but recover well after they are wilted.
  • Bacopa – can be good bloomer all summer but may die off in heat spell/needs water
  • Gaura Whirling Butterflies..G. Lindheimeri – Another standard planted with Euphorbia diamond frost
  • Lantana –One of the best heat tolerant plants, variety of colors
  • Allysum – totally heat tolerant and small white blooms all summer, low 2”
  • Brachycon (Asteracea Brachyscome, lemon twist swan river daisy) – fine leaves and small yellow flowers, great for overflowing containers
  • Double petunias – wave variety – these are the only plants that have survived in 5” deep hanging boxes
  • Coleus – plant a mix of them in a container, don’t mix with other plants as they’ll take over
  • Spearmint – great for mojitos
  • Sunvitalia – very heat sensitive, cannot dry out
  • Osteospermum – white with purple centers is my favorite
  • Argyanthemum – prefer cooler weather so may die in hot spell
  • Felicita – small blue flower (Felicia amelloides) good for underplanting

Hellebores…Beauty among the Debris

Hellebores are one of the earliest flowering perennials.  Note that these plants are often sold in grocery stores in early spring and people think they should just throw them out but NO!  Plant them for next year.  Many a good perennial is sold and accidentally thrown out if the owner doesn’t realize the treasure they have!  Another great example is in Sept/Oct timeframe you’ll find Montauk Daisies sold as little gift plants.  These things are workhorses and need to be planted for one of the few flowering fall shrubs.

Anyway….hellebores look a little mangey.  Some of the old leaves are brown and flattened on the ground but look closely as the little flowers will start to show themselves in March.  They’ll add leaves and perk up through April.  They come in a lot of different colors and are slow growing – mine has taken a few years for my first to become a bit intimidating.   They also need just the right spot and can be finicky.  Mine seem to like a spot under a tree that does get some direct sun.  I had a few in a more shady area and they did not do well.  I have started a little hellebore garden now outside my office window.  Note that if they are in the right spot, you can abuse them and they still do well.

What to grow with?  I often interplant them with tulips and they are growing with a huge hosta and some Jack Frost Brunnera underneath a magnolia.  It is a bright spot in my yard in early spring!


Freedom in the Woods, 1st Trail Run April 19, 2020

I’ve been running around my neighborhood several times a week.  In and around each cul de sac multiple times a night….around and around.  With my 2.25 hour long run today, I broke free of the neighborhood and ran down to my home course 3 mile loop.  The soft pine needles under my feet felt great!  I remembered why I love the trails so much…. Note that the day before we had snow pummeling down that melted in a few short hours.  The run started out so cold I could have used gloves but ended up peeling off the fleece after a few miles and being comfortable in just a long sleeve rashguard.

Despite the fact noone is supposed to be out, I saw plenty of cars still.  To get there, I had to run 2 miles each way down a typically very busy road with, in some places, a very small berm.

Ended up still going around and around my neighborhood 🙂  My neighbor called me a chicken about going up a hill around the corner so I had to do it….finished in front of the forsythia!


I am still struggling with hip pain so did two romwods prior to the run and then had a little soak in the hottub after.  Note that with the corona virus and Kennys’ dad passing away, I cancelled my shoulder surgery and spent the next few weeks working out very hard to see what I could do even with the shoulder.  I rehurt my shoulder and last week was so worn out I could hardly do anything.  Took it easy this week and next with no strength work and extra mobility.  Despite me feeling like an old woman with my aches and pains, it is perfect training grounds out here in NH!  Then, although I was tired and walking a bit slow, spent 4 hours mulching….which is another blog.  Let’s celebrate progress – last year at this time, I would have been absolutely crippled with lower back pain.  At least my lower back pain is gone after running due to all the single legged exercises I’ve been doing.  It does come back after doing strength training….What’s the fun if it was easy?!

Train on!



Get to Work its April 19!! Spring Cleaning

And with all of us working at home due to the Corona Virus, a little more time to work in the yard!  I can’t complain as this is my “office” view of the magnolia and a few hellebores on my desk.

This is what you need to be doing so you can spend May buying plants!!  And note that some good perennials start going for sale in April, which are totally safe to plant as long as they’ve been outside.

  • Thorough leaf cleaning of the yard.  We rake onto tarps and drag into the woods, use a high powered leaf blower and also a lawnmower to pick them out of the grass.  If you get most of them up, you can use mulch to cover some in your flower beds.  Leaves will just compost and mulching right after makes everything look neater.  Here are a few before and after shots from the last three weeks:
  • As you do the leaf cleaning, cut down all the perennials left over from last year.  Cut off the old daylilly brown leaves all over the ground, rip off the old sedum stalks, hosta stalks, tall phlox, cut down all the old peony stalks (but be wary of the new shoots!), cut down the grasses and get those leaves out of the base of your shrubberies!  No easy way to do that.  Just dive in and get them out by hand.  I use a very small plastic rake to try my best before hand picking them out.
  • Take a break and have fun.  Order a few more bulbs!  I just ordered 20 (more) dahlias, some calla lillies and a bunch of caladiums.  All of which need digging up for the winter.  I may have accidentally killed all my old dahlias leaving them dug up in the garage too long causing them to mold.  I have little hope.
  • If you’re making a mess while cleaning up leaves with all the perennial rubbish, you might as well do some pruning as well of your hydrangeas, spireas, Montauk daisies, and any boxwood hedges you have.  This boxwood hedge is AFTER pruning. I like to keep them natural looking and dive right in to cut out some of the big branches just trimming a little at the end.  Getting light in there will keep it healthy all the way thru the shrub.  That debris took up a lawn bag or two all on its own!  I think I also made about 10 trips dragging branches out to the trailer between what I pruned and just branches that had come down due to winter storms.


  • Before laying down mulch, edge and get the grass out of the beds!  This is very important.  You need a 2″ clean vertical cut for grass not to grow into the bed.  I have some rubber bed edging that always needs cleaning out as the mulch/dirt eventually covers them and they don’t prevent grass that well so I always have some work to do.  Pretty fast work though and nothing is better than a good looking edge to your beds!
  • Trim your crabapples if you need to.  Tall husbands useful here.  Remember your rose gloves as doing battle with crabapples is not for the faint of heart!
  • Spread down some grass seed for all the bare spots.  Our front yard always looks ragged from the critters and from me dragging big branches through it…


  • Clean and reactivate any birdbaths and ponds.  Get those dead frogs and snakes out of there!
  • Take a half day and go out to a local nursery and buy a few of the always good, cheap perennials you can never have enough of prior to mulching.  I just brought home a few more columbines (my husband calls them chlamydias but that is a sexual disease…), hollyhocks, some spring flowering low growing clumps of something I can’t remember now, and pansies for the front window box.
  • Rake those leaves gently off all the daffodils coming up!  Their yellow leaves will turn green in time.
  • Take a few hours and have fun pulling out all your pots and setting them up.  Important to get the dirt wet again as it has dried out all winter.  I pour water in and am very careful before planting. Leaving them out a few weeks before you try to plant helps a lot.  You’ll also have to freshen up the dirt in them anyway with a little compost/manure.  Don’t forget to put them on feet so they can drain.
  • Get out the hoses!  I have converted to the very lightweight, expandable hoses so those are simple.  We need the old, long rubber ones to drain the pond.  Nothing is worse than rolling up a hose.  That is my husbands’ job.
  • Also important is to address the varmit holes… as soon as the leaves are up, spread down some mole away typically made up of castor oil to make them go away (or at least into your neighbors yard!!).  The hole below belongs to a very cute groundhog who eats all my plants.  I don’t want to kill the guy and am in a quandry right now with what to do about him.  One year I did try to bomb his hole but ended up poisoning and killing a crabapple tree instead.  Every afternoon I see him taking a stroll through my garden.  For the little voles/moles, you can use some chlorine pellets if you cover up the hole after.


  • And very importantly, PULL UP ALL WEEDS BEFORE MULCHING!  You are wasting your time mulching if you do not do this.  Avoiding weeds and stopping them from coming back is the entire point of mulching.  Don’t be lazy and cause yourself extra work a few weeks later when your newly mulched beds end of being the perfect backdrop for a bunch of weeds!
  • Only now should you mulch.
  • If you mulch NOW, in April, you will do a preemptive strike on weeds and save yourself a ton of work.  There are just a few short weeks to do this before all hell will break loose.  I start with 10 cubic yards.  For beds with few weeds that still have mulch left, I may just do a sprinkling of it.  For weedy areas, I put down a good 2-3″.  To calculate how much you need in cubic yards, do this math:

Approximate square feet you need, for example 100 s.f..  Multiple by 3″ converted to feet to get cubic feet and divide by 27 to convert to cubic yards.  There may be free delivery if you order some amount so ask about that.  They like to deliver on a tarp.  make sure to weight down the edges as it will blow away.  I put bricks, logs or pieces of slate around it and once it is down, keep it covered with a tarp so it doesn’t get soggy and blow away.

Example:  (100 feet*(3 in)/(12 in/ft))/27 = cubic yards


  • Sweep after you have cleaned up the leaves and put down mulch.  Nothing is worse than dirt all over your patio and paths and driveways.
  • Make sure that when you cleaned up, you exposed the true edges of your patios.  Often grass can grow over the edges slowly shrinking down your playspace.  Show it who’s boss and scrape it off with a trowel!
  • Put out your patio table awning.  Ours still has a hole in it from last year when my husband killed a wasp with a blow torch under the awning and caught it on fire…
  • Set out the tiki torches!
  • Take a break the few days you might get a snow if living in NH!  This was last week …typically melts within a few hours.  This is the reason that you have to wait to plant annuals.  I had already purchased a few pansies so made sure to cover them with a plastic bag for snow and freezing nights and they are still doing fine.


A note on child labor:

It it wonderful.

The last few years I have been hiring neighborhood kids to help bring me wheelbarrows of mulch while I lay it down which is awesome!  I also have them do the edging and often, dig me new beds as mine are always expanding a little…. Delete and repost your advertisement in facebook if some local mother writes that you aren’t paying her kid enough.  Minimum wage for someone not old enough to work is apparently not enough in my neighborhood…..why try and thwart me?!

This year of the corona virus, it was up to me and my strong husband to do it all.  While working at home, we’ve been power mulching for 30″ a night during the week.

What not to do:

  • Cut down any lavender.  It looks like crap right now – that is normal.  Leave it alone.


  • Dump mulch over little plants coming up.  In beds with a lot of plants, I use a wide toothed, heavy rake to gently shake the mulch over top of them or manually lay it down.  Covering up most things with a little bit of mulch won’t hurt but i wouldn’t bury tender leaves of a little lungwort or columbines or tulips.
  • Do not mulch around the base of trees – that will kill them.  Leave the tops of the roots or the flare at the bottom free.  Any landscape company that does this is a bunch of hacks.

Do not work so hard it is not fun.  I’m giving you a little crap and trying to scare you to mulch early – which is important – but enjoy your time out there.  Talk to your neighbors.  Commiserate about the groundhog.  Divide a few daylillies and share.  Sit down and enjoy being outside with the sun on your face. Tell your hard working husband how great is doing (positive reinforcement!) and don’t forget to stop for a 5pm “zoom” cocktail with your friends (corona times…).

Garden on my friends!



For the Love of Dahlias…

I guess the 20+ I have in my basement aren’t enough because I just ordered 20 more bulbs for this year 🙂

They are taking up a considerable dedicated space these days around a crabapple tree and have also expanded to be along the periphery of another sun bed.  It took me a few weekends to dig up all the pachysandra to create this space.  A secret to getting rid of pachysandra is to post and have others dig it up.  Garden centers charge dollars for one stem when they can lift mine in huge sheets for free!  Everyone is happy.

I surround them with other things so the space looks natural – here is a picture when they are just about a foot high- they are hard to see in front of all the daylillies.  After seeing a beautiful massive grouping of daylillies when walking Lake Superior in Duluth, MN, I realized how beautiful it is if you can group them.  This tells you how late in the summer they are ready – the phlox is tall in this picture and the daylillies are already blooming too.


Is it time to plant? (courtesy of Swan Island Dahlias)

  1. Is my ground temperature around 60 degrees?
  2. Is it time to put the vegetables in my garden?
  3. Is the weather warm and dry enough to allow me to work in my yard on a daily basis?
  4. Is my soil workable, not too soggy?
If you can answer yes to those questions, then your dahlias are ready to be planted. It is important to remember that dahlias DON’T like cold and/or wet feet. So, if you get one beautiful day and the rest are wet and cold, don’t plant. Dahlias for the Northern half of the United States can be planted anytime from late April through early June.
I take them out of basement where where haphazardly thrown in late fall in paper cartons, milk crates, old cat litter boxes and the plastic garden trays some garden centers put plants in:
dahlia storage

I haven’t split mine very much yet because they have been growing a few years getting bigger but note that each “tuber” is not a plant.  They need to have an “eye”, which are hard to find.  My strategy will be to just hack one in two when I am ready.  Any plant that requires too much delicate handling is just not for me!

I throw them in the ground around mid/late April with a small stake to note where they are and put them about a foot apart.  Is it worth trying to plant them earlier in pots?  NO.  I tried it vs. just putting them in the ground and didn’t see a huge difference and it was a lot more work.  Just throw them in the ground – don’t water them in!  Throw some slug bait down and give them a few weeks to come up.  Once you start seeing a few sets of leaves, pinch them back – even if they have a bud on them!  This will give you a bushier plant.


They take your breath away.  They require patience as once planted, you won’t see a flower for a few months.  But when they flower, wow!!!  And then you realize you need to stake because they grow so fast.  Last year, I started/made little cages out of garden fencing and used those in place of staking which was less work.  I need another year of this to decide the right mix.  You can see below a cage vs. my typical staking on the right.  Note that one plant needs several stakes because some get so big and wide….Stakes become a huge mess and some plants needed 4-5.

Although the caging method looks funny for a while, they soon disappear as you can see below and contain some pretty big plants.


I’m growing into getting bigger ones every year… here are a few of my new ones

The dahlia is also a mystery….who knows what you will find in one!  Spiders, FROGS!….. I cut mine and leave them outside for a few hours so the creatures inhabiting them may leave.  These are a few I cut so my husband could take them and give them to all his work wives.  He walks proudly into his office with several bouquets in hand taking care of those who take care of him.

dahlia bouquet
Here is my favorite (“Fluffles”) of all the ones I grew last year:
Unfortunately, it didn’t grow that big or give me many so let’s hope it does better/is bigger this year!
When to cut
You MUST wait 2 weeks after a hard frost before digging them up.  You will read it is OK sooner but I lost all of mine one year by being “proactive.”  A hard frost will immediately turn all the leaves black.  Then wait…wait….and cut off the top stalks, dig them out and take off what dirt you can.  I let them dry NO LONGER THAN A WEEK in the garage before shaking off even more dirt and putting them downstairs.  If you leave them too long, they will start getting moldy.
They really do require full sun and I keep expanding one of my beds to give them the best conditions.  Here is “Cafe au Lait” which is a big one, loving the sun spot I moved it to this year.
Pots vs. In Ground
One year I tried planting a bunch in pots and it didn’t go so well.  I am throwing them in the ground from now on reserving a pot only for a short, bushier variety like: Bishop of Llandaff:
bishop of llandaff dark leaf dahlia
So here’s to an ever expanding dahlia collection and to all the mornings I walk out in my pajamas getting my feet wet to cut some and make someone smile at work!
dahlia quoe

Container Gardening Class

Container Gardening 2019

Normally I do a container gardening class at the local library, which is, of course, not possible this year with the Corona Virus so I am posting my presentation here.  I also have this handout which also has a few of my favorite perennials (plants that live outside year after year) and good books and other resources:

Plant List Handout for Container Class

The cover picture is from my old roof deck and this is a passion flower, which is an annual out here in the northeast.






That’s What Love Is … and Weathering Corona Virus

Craziest March I’ve ever known.  I haven’t been at work for six weeks now with at least another two more and suspect this “stay at home” order due to Corona virus will be extended thru April. Kenny has been in SC with his family the last month (since the day after we returned from the Philippines).

Kenny’s dad passed away March 20, 2020.  Love is caring for someone the last days of their life.  I watched this every day I was down there as they took care of him and calmed him when he “woke up” in distress. Big Ken passed away quietly surrounded by his mom and kids, Kenny and Barbara.

On the Corona virus front, the situation is escalating in NYC and across the US. I think it will only get worse the next few weeks, especially with the absolute failure of the federal govt to coordinate state activities – it is a free for all right now.  I was worried about Kenny driving home up the east coast tomorrow but he does have an essential worker letter.  Despite that grim situation, spring is coming and hellebores and snowdrops are outside.  The snow finally melted this week – we got a heavy 10″ last Monday that took down a bunch of limbs:

Honestly, working and being at home is fine with me and not so different from what I would normally do.  Yesterday I did some spring leaf raking and drug all the huge branches out of the yard.

Because of the closing of gyms, my home equipment is expanding with the addition of a bosu ball, several kettlebells, and more dumbbells.  While I was in SC, I have to say I loved the garage wods (did them all with the cat Pepper) and ran some hills with sandbag.  My nephew Jaime did a 2 hr run/bike with me

Equipment updates:  Love the new bosu ball, which has exposed how weak my right side is and the KB workouts and quotes from  Pavel:

“enjoy the pain”

“exercise good judgement or stay on the machines you sissy”

“kettlebells are used to weed out the weakness of the Russian gene pool”

Finally I have my 20# weighted vest and did a 40 min run which kicked my ass!

On the running/workout community side, I finally met someone from the nashua/hollis running groups and did a long run with Rita:


After the Philippines, Amanda Jacob and I have continued our morning workout tradition on saturday mornings.  I got a whiteboard to use outside and we’ve been social distancing in the driveway this week:

I need to find someone to do tempo runs and intervals with!  I spent March working more on strength, realizing I had been punting on that with my shoulder, and just tried.  Worked well until I reinjured my shoulder this week and can’t lift it (felt fine during workout but maybe the 75 overhead presses, 60 pushups, and 60 DB chest presses from floor were too much.  This may be an incentive to move up the surgery – I had been thinking that maybe I didn’t need it…


Laura’s Terrible, Horrible, No Good Very Bad Day (Week)

Note I am having a very bad week (relatively speaking) – I know I am very lucky and am appreciative of my health, my family, my friends…but:
  • I am back at work vs. being on an awesome vacation in the Philippines watching the sunrise on a sandy beach
  • Kennys dad went into hospice so he is helping his parent out for a few weeks.  Not good.  Pushed out shoulder surgery.  This changes my whole years’ plan.  I’m alone in the country without any cats….
  • I am banned from work for being in Asia so being treated like an outcast.  This actually works better for me giving me back 2 hrs in a day…. I know this.
  • Serious jet lag and issues sleeping – burnt my salmon dinner to a crisp while falling asleep at 6pm, waking up around 11 and being up until 4am.  Thank goodness I can roll out of bed at 7:30-8 and work in my pajamas
  • Feeling like I have the very start of a cold – or possibly corona virus!!!!! Not sure if my unusual crippled status after the long run Saturday was jet lag, due to scuba diving decompression, the beginnings of being sick or what.  I’ve felt weird this week after workouts – unusually tired.
  • Thought Monday as a normal day off and it wasn’t so I missed my workout
  • Having “serious” equipment issues with
    • my HR monitor refusing to work
    • bike setup – just spent 30 min at 10 pm trying to get it projecting zwift to TV for various reasons (partly because I’m old and with my exercise contacts in, I can’t see the cable outlet names to change the TV settings to read in the signal from the apple TV device vs. what Kenny flips it to to watch movies while he’s on the adjacent rower…..again, old age).
    • My butt also hurts because I haven’t been on the bike that much.
    • I also had to work super hard to keep a basic 90 rpm – that used to be easy and now, just like running, I am struggling to do the basics of what I did last year.
  • I have this polyp thing (woman issue) requiring a simple day surgery that I can do now with shoulder pushout do but they won’t schedule it for 2 months, which means I continue to have a period like every day for 2 more months – that sucks (TMI I know)
  • Trying to be strict on nutrition – afraid to get on scale after vacation (I was very sensible by thet way and did exercise almost every day).  Must drop at least 5 lbs.  Ate an entire batch of cookie dough this week – total fail but hit macros yesterday 🙂
  • I’m reading this book “endure” which basically says that everything is my fault – that I could be a world class runner as its all mental…..
And my coach wants me to run a record mile time despite me being a minute slower despite hard effort in the recent weeks.  Is it mental?  My body is stuck in slow mode and hes trying to break me out of it.
At least I have my new Toto toilet (higher to help my quads when they hurt sitting down), and Toto washlet that sprays, heats, lights up and keeps itself clean.

Best Mornings Ever and Avoiding Decompression Sickness in the Philippines

Oh, I’ll miss this! 5:30am Coffee.  Watch the sunrise. Then we would head out for a morning run before the first dive.  I found some good friends there – Amanda and Jake – to share the sunrises and to sweat with up stairs, on the rooftops, up mountains and on the beach.

We did 3-5 dives a day for 10 days down to 98′ in Puerto Galera and Dumaguete. There appears to be a lack of science behind exercising before diving.  After diving, some data shows that if you do intense exercise, you increase risk of microbubbles in your bloodstream which put you at risk for decompression sickness (DCS).  DAN recommends not exercising 24 hours before and after diving to reduce the residual nitrogen in tissues and blood.  Normal air is 21% O2, 78% Nitrogen.  Every 33′ in depth, the pressure due to nitrogen increases by 11.6 psi causing more of it to dissolve into tissues.  Affects of this can be mitigated by:

  • Following dive tables (time at depth, surface time)
  • Diving with nitrox (31% oxygen to reduce total amount of nitrogen being inhaled)
  • Not ascending too fast and doing safety stop
  • Not flying until 18 hrs after diving
  • No hard exercise after diving
  • Hydrate!
  • Avoid alcohol

Think of what happens when you open a soda can, which releases pressure.  This effect is similar as to what causes DCS when you don’t moderate the release of pressure.

We chose to ignore the before and did around 45″ of pre-dive crossfit/running daily and didn’t suffer any affects.  Add that to the scientific data!

Signs of decompression sickness (DCS):

  • Joint pain
  • Headache
  • Dizziness, confusion
  • Nausea
  • Fatigue
  • Trouble breathing
  • Inability to urinate
  • Ear ringing

I also think its BS when people say diving burns 400-700 cal/hr.  People may be tired from the sun, exposure to cool water, but it is not due to exertion.

We were just three crazies running with the hounds on the white sands.

In Puerto Galera, we did a stair circuit including rooftop pushups, burpees, air squats and jumping lunges.  What a beautiful view from the roof!

There was also a 3 mile loop up the mountain (320′ elevation) behind us with amazing views up top, a run through town, and a run along the beach at the end:

The diving itself was amazing;

When we were in Dumaguete, we spent one day running partially up a mountain next to farms with chicken and oxen, passing families on motorinos…

Then decided beach runs were more fun and more scenic!  Had one day doing short runs incorporated into 4 rounds of a crossfit workout involving pushups, air squats, planks, burpees and others with just a long run or a run made up of sprints:

Never got tired of that sunrise…

I did lose 1.5 days in bed due to what I think was sickness/nausea due to the water 🙂  It has been a struggle this year emotionally – perhaps because of the upcoming shoulder surgery, or long nights, or ?  This was a great trip also because we just exercised for fun.  I did a long run day we flew out, missed it next weekend just because there wasn’t time, and did a 1:50 run day after we returned so got them all in per training plans.

Who wants to be average?!

It hurts way less than that Nashoba hill… Mental prep for lactate threshold runs

Last week I was working in London and had a 30″ tempo run.  My coaches notes said “you will need to be VERY focused and maintain concentration throughout the run.  Get amped up before going!”  These 5k type speed runs are my most dreaded workout.  I was listening to a podcast where a 100-200 miler was being interviewed and she said she’d rather run 100 miles than do a 5k.  They’re hard!!  I’m out of my element these days.  Mentally I’m pissed because when I was 17, I could run 8″/mile pace for as long as I wanted and I struggle to get that for just one mile today.

I have to get past comparing myself to when I was 17.  I know this 🙂

I had a few revelations around/in this run:

  • It should be fun.  Holler, smile, say hello to folks.  Have a more positive attitude knowing you will be better for doing it and don’t take it too seriously.  I am an amateur after all – back of the pack right now so I can only get better!
  • In the middle of the run I compared myself to what I felt like running up that 2 min Nashoba hill and realized I was way, way better off.  This was not even painful.  That put things in perspective.  That hill is my new comparative for what being close to utter failure feels like (that day stays in my head I almost literally fell over about 30′ from the top from poor pacing).  It wasn’t that bad really.
  • I’ve been wheezing and my breath is more limiting than my legs so I may get an inhaler to help out in this cold weather.

I ended up doing a 9:13/mile pace, way faster than the 9:37/mile I did 12/25/19.  It also takes time to get your pacing back and acclimate to speed work after the long runs.  I was pretty discouraged at my start of year benchmarks but after a few weeks, I think I am better than last year.  I also researched a little on how these extra 10 lbs affect me, which I calculate as being worth 2 s/mile/pound or a good 20-30 seconds.  Working that.

I ran around and around St. James Park, which has just spectacular huge trees, beautiful against the moonlight.

There is always fun/drama during the run.  I got slightly slowed in second mile as I started to pace with the ducks quacking!  My eyes cried a few times for no reason, and I think concentrating on not tripping and falling took my mind off the run.  Good effort with 30 s/mile improvement since December 25 for same distance!

Hello Old Friend, 2/2/20

It’s been a while since we’ve spent time together!  Nashua rail trail has been a steady place to do longer flat runs but I left it in June of last year to hit the trails and mountains.  Doing 80″ “long” Sunday runs adding 10 min a week – around the same time as last year but in Z3 vs. Z2 and @ 180 cadence (last year I didn’t start using metronome until spring).  Keeping up the cadence adds pressure for sure!

Lesson learned last year:  You will always be tired at the end of a workout.  You will always think, if I’m this tired at this distance/time, how will I ever make it for as long as I need to go….. but you will.  Doing intervals, doing hills will never be “easy” but your recovery after will be shorter.  Last year, I would have been absolutely crippled for the rest of day with my lower back issues – mostly resolved!



Bruise is fake.  Took a wilderness first aid class two weeks ago with NOLS through REI.  As my distances in the mountains/trails get longer, I feel much better feeling a little competent around how to help myself or someone else with an injury.

I also debriefed with my PT biomechanics master, Mike Roberts, this week about last years races and my current hip pain.  Had a few interesting thoughts:

  • Durability takes time to build up.  I slowed down the second half of both long races.  This year I hope to be more consistent with a year of experience/mileage under me.
  • Even though I still have hip pain, which started on the flatter long runs after Killington, he thinks its not because of some mobility issue to fix but normal recovery and a little beefing up of my glue mead will help as well.
  • Training/performance for a high elevation race like Killington (12,200′) vs. the Stone Cat 50k (2,500′) is different.  Going up and down hills alternates which muscles are being used.  Continuous flatter runs are beating the crap out of the same ones the whole race.  That didn’t occur to me when I thought StoneCat would just be super easy vs Killington and it crushed me.
  • He thinks a little run downtime during my upcoming shoulder surgery is great timing and will help me fully recover from last year.

My questions remain:

  • How long do you need to recover between races?  How many can you do a year vs. years of experience… I’d like to lay out a plan between now and 100 mile UTMB qualifiers.
  • What does recovered mean?
  • When do you need to just run vs. cross train with bicycle to build up that endurance?  At some point cycling may not stress you enough to get used to it.

2020 Goals: Kilkenney Ridge 50 Miler

I am working first two months to build what strength I can before going into shoulder surgery.  Then it will be a year of rebuilding and lower strength/running trying not to fall and reinjure myself on the trails.  I am still recovering with hip pain from race last November – have to beat this or will be limited this year.  My goals are to get more competent at 30 milers and try this 50 mile, 15,000′ course which will require some rigorous hill training as well/just like last year.

Current primary races:

  • Vermont Ragnar ultra 30 mile
  • Kilkenney Ridge 50 miles, 15000′
  • Stone Cat redo 30 mile, 2500′

I plan to volunteer at the VT 100, which will be my target race in 2021, and is a qualifier for UTMB.

It bothers me a lot being so slow and I think the way to improve that is interval training – I lived in fear of my first interval runs this year.  I have slowed down a lot since the last ones ins August but hopefully will improve quickly.  I am afraid of what I’ve lost and need some experience to understand these training cycles…will feel better when I competently run some long distance and feel strong/better than last year to know that I do have a better base that will payoff this year.

I am excited about trying for a 50 miler and love those long training runs in the woods.  Got my husband a pair of trail shoes so he can throw down a few with me 🙂

Race Schedule 2020

This has all gone to hell with the corona virus!!

Winter Snowshoe 5k Dion Nor’easters 1/11

Winter Snowshoe 10k Dion Nor’easters early Feb

Half Marathon – early Mar

Shoulder surgery 3/5/19 – out six weeks

Ragnar Zion  5/8 15 mi

30 mile race – end May

Vermont 100 volunteer – Mid July

VT Ragnar Ultra 30 mi – 7/24

Kilkenney Ridge Race 50 mi – 9/19

Shoulder Setback…Back to the Drawing Board for 2020 Goals

Got confirmation that I need shoulder surgery on my other (right) side.  It was the Spartan Spring race last May – I knew it was hurt but hoping it would recover and just kept aching.  MRI confirmed a few weeks ago with similar damage as my left – not a huge tear but one that won’t heal by itself.

Super deflated initially as I was so looking forward to working strength and distance and now figuring out how to adapt my plans for next year.  Spartan races are out but I found an alternative 50 mile, 15000′ elevation race in Sept that will be my new goal.

Surgery planned early March as we had already planned a scuba trip to the Philippines in February.  That puts any upper body work out until September.

Fun in the Dark and Venturing Into the Woods 12/8/19

I love running at night – doing the Vermont Ragnar trails was one of the most fun runs I have ever done.  I am back to running with a relaxed 30″ run plus warmup tonite in the cold, on slightly snowy roads and my trail shoes (which I didn’t know about last winter).

Because I am afraid of getting lost up in the mountains, I decided to learn how to use my compass.  Saturday (yesterday) I did two beginner Orienteering courses at Beaver Brook run by, who were kind enough to teach me many things including:

  • How to use my compass and a map
  • How to use snowshoes and what different types there are – they loaned me a pair
  • What snow gaiters are and let me wear a pair
  • How you can buy different bottoms for your trekking poles or X-country skiis and let me try theirs out

Super fun 2.5 hours making some beginner mistakes but learned a lot!  Had to pay closer attention to the map (never really did that before) to notice when I should be passing streams or paths or boulders and the importance of orienting compass and map to north when you start vs. being turned totally around by accident…

Beautiful, beautiful day in the woods with about 20″ of snow.  I had to venture off the trails, forded a small river and even set new trails following the directions vs. taking the easy way!  It was also pretty cold in the 20s so got to try out my new Arc’tyrx jacket which was too hot with a midweight fleece and ski pants – went back to my running wear for these temps with the added snowshoes and gaiters.


I am so very happy I know how to do this now – it is like taking a test out in the wild!  Can’t wait to try an intermediate one next time.  Two organizations to look into:

  • New England Orienteering Club

Barkley marathon here I come……in a few years 🙂


Emotionally Reinvigorated…But Hurt Myself During Xfit Warmup 11/16/19

Ultramarathon + 2 wks.  Ego still bruised but am absolutely reinvigorated!!!  Have new goals and knowing my weaknesses (growing my base, strength and obstacle skills, mobility) know what to do to crush the Killington Ultra and accomplish a 50 miler next year.  I was having a tough time between the two big races but am over that now and can’t wait to get going on strength.

Except I tried to start 3 days after the race and hurt myself during the crossfit warmup doing a burpee….  I had a small ache behind my knee which I exacerbated and took myself out for about 5 days not being able to even walk.  Here I am 10 days later and it still hurts – I ran some on it today but it still hurts a little!

Lesson:  No intense workout the week after a long race

Goals:  My issue is finding a goal that scares me now.  Fear was a strong motivator this year knowing I either work hard or die in the race….  I am way less afraid now.  I am working my race schedule for next year which will I think have 2 30 mile races including a redo of Killington Ultra culminating with a 50 mile run.  Following year I plan to do a 100 miler and work on qualifying for the UTMB (106 miles, 32900′ elevation… roughly 3x killington).

This video of the UTMB start is just awesome:

So I am starting doing pullups again at work in our new pullup station, mobility, and need to fix my lower back by doing more one legged work.  Back didn’t hurt at all after either race but it did hurt after doing some Olympic lifting so I know it isn’t 100%.

A few pics from my run/walk 90 min in beautiful Marblehead today:



Trying to get back to clean/reduced eating, honest reporting and en route to badass!


A Journey in Professional and Personal Continuous Improvement

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